I wanted to go a little more in-depth about why I started this blog. There are many reasons, actually, but the one I want to focus on today is because I just wanted to do it.
When I say that, I don’t mean I am me and I do whatever I want whenever I want (although my husband might say that’s true). I mean it’s something I’ve been thinking about doing for the past year, but never found the “right time.” My favorite excuse is I’m just not in the mood. Which is totally dumb because a blog is something I’ve seriously wanted to do.
But I think as humans we’re put off by work and we’re put off by risks. Blogs take a ton of time and I’m a self-admitted perfectionist. When I undertake a project, I care for it and will put forward my all. Which can be very time consuming and strenuous. The risk part isn’t because I’m investing a lot of money or risking my life writing dangerous, thrilling posts based on risky times; it’s that I’m a very shy and private person. Writing is fun for me. Sharing my writing is anxiety-inducing.
So I have a bit of fear and worry doing this thing. Still, I’m really tired of not doing things that I say I’m going to do or that I want to do. Wishing that I had done something or chased after something or whatever is really depressing to think about. There are so many opportunities around that I am tired of missing out on. I am sick of not doing what I want to do.
I listened to an excellent TED Talk the other day, and it was like a really big “duh.” You know what I mean? It’s obvious, but it’s also a why didn’t I think of that concept. The point that stuck out to me, that duh, was get up and go do it. Get up and go do what you want to. The speaker brought up that we are never going to feel like it (it being whatever you want to change/do).
So here I am. Trying to actually get up and do this blog. And use this blog to reach out to others, share my story, and document getting up. Because life shouldn’t be about not being in the mood and not reaching for what you want and feeling regret for all of that. I want to try being what I want to be.
What do you think? What is something that you’ve always wanted to do, but, for whatever reason, haven’t?